Resonance......from past

It seems my diabolical feet was touching the first drop of pristine Ganga. There was definitely some charge stored in it as felt an impulse as if the jolt of current is flowing through my body. Every part of my body was exhilarated with arcane ecstasy. It seems everything had been still till now, I was floating alone in dead sea, water around was as still as witch's oil. But in this stillness like a Albatross I found a chilled breeze carrying an mystic aroma. An aroma that cannot it can be explained by words. It can be only sensed by may be heart or perhaps by some part of soul, and now it was oozing through every pores of body. The aroma was like a gush of air whose first touch to skin give such a pleasure that it will drawf any kind of bliss.

And what it was ......it was mastero "Bimillah Khan" with his Shennai.

My GOD!!! every whisker of my body was at its feet. And then comes "Shadi wali Shennai". I could almost smell the aroma of thin termeric and carnal marigold floating through the air.

"Raag MALKAUNS" it started with unitone Shennai...felt as if I am walking up in some rustic village of the Brindavan, with benevolent sunlight falling in my eyes. Village women where passing by with there earthen pot in their head. Pitch increases slowly but steadily. Then it increase suddenly as if I am climbing an staircase. The blood rush through all part of my body.
But the synchronous tune was continuing in background. Its pitch was again increasing. I was feeling as if I am elevating .......walking through the secluded streets of Banaras, though bit dark. Then I came to open ground.....sun full fledged distilling all my dogma. I was breathing in resonance of Shennai.

Again "Shaadi ke Shennai" but this time so different so melancholy. Seems as if I am leaving everything. I will be so lonely after. Life will be miserable. I am losing my childhood, my exuberance.............. that it enough for now.........

Confusion

Life ......from the childhood, I had wondered what it is? But every time a new version of thoughts popes in mind. Some of these are quite near to each, but most of them gives a wide range of feeling preview. Even some of them are quite contradictory to each other. But this wide range of the definitions of life allays my fear to be constrained in some limited bound it give me space to breath in.

When you thought more rationally about the life, you will find there is too much invariably confusion embedded to it. Some how this uncertainties are part of life. This make life a bit unpredictable. But I define life as a this uncertainties , this confusion, this unpredictability. This make to be defined still non bounded.